First Hospital Trip as A Mom....

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Last week Bridgie had a runny nose and a cough...pretty much what everyone at day care had. I wasn't really that concerned until her cough became so harsh on her that it sounded like she was Gasping for air. It was almost as if she couldn't breathe properly. Of course I second guessed myself on taking her in, but I  did decide I would make a same day appointment at the Peds clinic for Friday.

Friday I made the appointment for 3 in the afternoon, around 10 I got a courtesy call that Bridgette had a 100.2 fever...and they wanted me to know I may need to come get her. When I went to get her for her doctor appointment they staff was telling me how bad her cough had gotten and she really seemed to be struggling. That really helped validate my concern , cause I feel that there is this stereotype that parents are very needy with sick kids. I didn't want to be THAT parent.

When Bridgie went into triage they hooked her little toe to the oxygen reader and her oxygen levels where very low (low 70s high 60s) it was bouncing around there for awhile and the nurse asked me to hold her over my shoulder to see if it would get better....well low and behold it did...but it would go down also. Anyways the number eventually hit 100 and the nurse was satisfied.



When speaking with the Doc she said well her oxygen is 100 so that doesn't seem to be a issue. I asked her if i needed to carry bridgie around on my shoulder all night , if i shouldn't set her down because her oxygen levels were only up when she was over my shoulder. The doctor decided to do another reading....well we did and it was in the 70s and high 60s again. They decided to do a saline cleanse to see if it was the runny nose that was causing her struggle. Well that didn't work...they hooked her up to straight oxygen...that didn't help then they did steroids that didn't help..they gave her abuterol...then she fell asleep....her numbers started dropping even lower. so we woke her up, it was as if laying down and sleeping were really the concern. we did a couple more rounds of saline and oxygen but nothing was changing It was closing time for Peds so they called the acute care clinic and we hooked little miss bridgie to the oxygen and walked down to the acute care.

SIDE NOTE: During all of this my personal phone had died (literally right after I posted the foot picture) I had no contact numbers on me and I couldn't get ahold of my husband on my work phone. So lets just say I was panicking like crazy on the inside. I text guinn that we would be at acute care and he text back in a panic...My mom called while I was walking down (how she got my work number I have no idea) but I couldn't talk cause we were walking and I was holding bridgie lets just say I think that's when the panic on the outside took place.

We got to acute care and instantly 6 men in uniform surround us. They were trying to force Bridgette to wear the oxygen mask they had and she was just not having it..she was screaming and crying . They were asking me questions. (I am sitting there thinking stop touching my kid....omg buster is still at home probably peeing and pooping inside...I have 12 oz of breast milk in my car...where is my husband?). The color of Bridgies skin started to change and I think that is when they made they call.

Bridgie and I got in the ambulance, they strapped my down while I held her. I was frantically texting my husband to meet us at the ER. He called me and was explaining that his motorcycle broke down and he was going to try to get a ride. Bridgie was struggling in the ambulance and they put her on oxygen and were monitoring her. It was seriously so scary! My sister called while I was in the ambulance but I couldn't talk cause I could barely hear anything.

When I got to the ER we walked Bridgie in and put her on oxygen . It only took a few minutes and the steroids kicked in and it was a entirely different baby! She started smiling and laughing it was a miracle!! Or modern medicine really:) My husband came rushing into the ER and was soaking we (he had laid his bike down on the rush here...he was fine then cause of adrenaline but he felt it the next day). They asked a million questions and we got a X-Ray done on her chest. They tested for RSV and said they didn't see any signs of phenomia . They diagnosed her with bronchospasm and a upper respiratory infection, sending us home with steroids and a inhaler.


She had a follow up appointment on Monday and her oxygen levels were wonderful not 100 consistently but in the 80s-90s! I'm very happy shes feeling better and I am very happy that we survived our first hospital trip. The test results haven't come in yet so hopefully nothing changes but the Peds doctor said she looks great and should be fine:) I am really glad that I was "that parent" because who would of known what would of happened if I hadn't taken her in? I am very happy and blessed to see her doing better.

It truly was the most heartbreaking thing seeing my daughter struggle to breathe and I was not able to do anything to help her! I know the post is all jumbled but It is what it is.

Have you ever been scared to be "that mom"?



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Things on my List

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

When I got pregnant and found out I was having a girl , So many people told me "oh you are going to buy so much stuff!" I always responded with "Nope I'm really frugal Its not my personality". Well was I WRONG!!! I can easily justify spending 40$ on Bridgie but justifying even 20$ on me ...yeah its not going to happen!! Anyways I am constantly shopping for Bridgie...and It may be a bad habit!! However there are a few things on my shopping list that I really really want!!! Or more like things Bridgie wants:) Oh man here we go!! So I wanted to share the top 5 things I'm dying to buy her:)

1)

Now this specific swimsuit is from mud pie (click pic for link)...I think it is so adorable!! I most likely will not be spending this much on a swimsuit but i love this one!! She will need a swimsuit soon!! I cant wait to take her in the beach and let her play!! I actually think we are going shopping for a swim suit this weekend!!

2)
I have heard RAVE reviews of this toy!! Everyone says they love it and that their kids even played with it till they were 3 years old!! It is a big purchase. I do plan to buy it within the next couple months! I can already see Bridgie trying to pull up on it and playing with the revolving blocks!! This looks so playful and fun! Its also really nice that the corners are rounded so if she does fall she wont be poking a eye out:) anyone have one of these and love it?

3.
I am so excited for the day Bridgie starts playing with puzzles!! Matching shapes and playing with Blocks! I know I sound really cheesey but when she learns new things  I get so excited!! I just cant wait for the puzzles and shapes! Ok..I feel like a nerd:)
4.

Who doesn't want a classic red rider wagon? I remember playing with one of these with my sister!! We used to wheel our dog Dewey in the wagon! It was so fun and I know Bridgie will love it just as much as we did!! Of course this isn't something I will be purchasing soon..but when the time comes I will be so excited!!

5.
Guinn has already decided that he will teach Bridgie how to play the guitar!
This will be so adorable to see, daddy daughter time! I can already imagine the bond they are going to have and Imagining them playing guitar together outside...its just the sweetest thing:) This is like the wagon, Its not going to happen anytime soon! I am seriously just so tickled to think she will be rocking out with her dad in a few years!!



 What is on your list?? I am sooo curious!


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When they asked me to cover...

Thursday, February 13, 2014

One of the Pros of working so close to Bridgie's day care is that I get to stop in whenever I want, including during lunch to nurse her.
A few weeks ago I went to the daycare to nurse Bridgie , I nurse in a big rocking chair in the middle of the room (where they have told me to nurse because there is no room designated for nursing moms). While nursing and chatting with the staff .the Director of the day care and two other women of high statue on post walked in and started to discuss me nursing in the room. They started to discuss why there was no where else for me to nurse as well why I was nursing in the room there (It wasnt directed at me). It was done in a manner that I found to be offensive and it was kind of off putting. It was so loud and awkward the staff in the room whispered "can you cover up" and threw me a cover. AWKWARD...
It was really upsetting and embarrassing but I let it go...
UNTIL...
This week I went into go nurse Bridgie again and one of the staff members asked me to cover. I looked at her and said " By federal law, and army regulation I do not have to cover!" ( Luckily our Garrison Commander is a proud supporter of Nursing and wrote a memo to support that). The lady then went on to express that they got in trouble last time I did that , another staff member chimed in and agreed. They said it makes the children uncomfortable and the dads who come by don't like it. I told them I would bring in the Law and Reg for them as well as to their supervisor's cause this was ridiculous.

After talking to a couple friends it got me thinking there is no reason I should be ashamed to be nursing in public or at all!! So I posted this picture on Facebook with a status that said ; after this week I was really sick of being put down for breast feeding. Its not a easy journey and if you are offended by this photo then remove yourself from my page etc....well it was removed because someone REPORTED my picture and Facebook deemed it inappropriate and removed it completely.



This really put a fire under me....it was upsetting and ridiculous!!

Yesterday I wrote a ICE complaint (a complaint that goes straight to the director) about the incident, mainly because I needed to let them know I didn't like the way they approached the issue. I was more concerned because people of such high rank should not only know there federal law and regulation. It was just upsetting!! I also added that it is disheartening that the day care as a whole has pushed formula on me since day one because it is free. How is it that we can say we support breastfeeding yet we make it so difficult and make formula so easy and convenient?

I got a response from one of the ladies that I mentioned in my complaint, she didn't say sorry she pretty much just said..
That she noticed her name was in the complaint and that she would let the director know of the issue"
REALLY??!?!!
whatever... Then...
The director chased me down in the parking lot...she at least said sorry but it was really more of a load of excuses some which were valid im sure. I am just glad she apologized.

All I can say is everyday is a new day and at lease I brought it to their attention and educated them on the Law! Anyone else ever been asked to cover up?
P.s I added a link to a awesome page that has pictures of women in the early days breast feeding...such a beautiful thing:)

http://www.buzzfeed.com/southerndisposition/25-historical-images-that-normalize-breastfeeding-jlw6



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Pumping at Work… It’s a Journey

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

There are many reasons why I chose to breast feed. That is a different post all in its own. Since I work full-time and I breastfeed I have to pump at work. Let me tell you it is not easy. I did my best to make sure that I was very sly about why I was taking breaks because I didn’t want everyone to know I was pumping. Let’s just say that didn’t last very long soon everyone knew where I was going…and that’s when the issues start.
Some experiences:

·         The day I told my supervisor that I was going to pump and would have to utilize all my breaks…her reply okay that’s awesome you can use the bathroom….WTF! I explained that would be weird since I work with clients who use the same bathroom. I told her I would just pump in my car…which is honestly nice cause that allows me to get out of the office but legally they are required to give me a room…which wouldn’t be hard considering we have counseling rooms that aren’t always in use.
·         I have a douche bag co-worker…and when I say douche bag I mean the ultimate douche bag. Don’t we all have one at our work? So he was in charge one day and I was coming back from my break he had the audacity to approach me and say that he knows I have family issues to deal with…while he made a gesture with his hands. The gesture was his hands at my breast level and moving his hands like he was pumping….YES this happened what a douche bag!! Also I am aware that is an EEO complaint…
·         Your co-workers have no boundaries and come to your car to ask you a work question during your break and find you pumping! YES this happened, it was very embarrassing cause they knew I was taking a break but still chose to come and ask me a simple question…oh and they after that douche bag calls you on the emergency on call phone (I was on call) and chews me out , which startled me and I spilled my milk…and cried.

But I guess that just comes with the territory. I wish it was easy but the good things aren’t always easy are they. I have issues with my supply and I definitely cry when I have bad days. I started a freezer stash when Bridgie was about a month or a little older, that way I could send some for daycare. She is drinking 3 oz. every 2 hours at day care so depending when I get to her it’s about 12-15 oz. So I try to make a goal to make that much at work every day. Do I meet that goal every day…nope, does it kill me YES!  A couple weeks ago I got food poisoning and it really put a damper on my supply. I went from producing about 10-12 oz. a day to 5-7 a day….it was really getting to me because my goal is to make it a year with breast milk! My short term goal is 6 months and from there its 12! So that has really been a struggle this past week. I started taking fenugreek on Monday and drinking more water and Gatorade. The results well let’s just say yesterday on the way to my office from my pump break I was doing a happy dance!! I was so happy it was insane I may have cried… if you are a breastfeeding mom who has had to rely on pumping you can understand my JOY! Then another pumping at work situation took place….

·         Tuesday is WIC day at our office, people can come to our office to get WIC services. You always know its WIC day cause parents rarely ever watch their children and its loud and truly ridiculous, even though we have signs that say children cannot be unattended. Who follows rules anyways right? So I’m back at my office working and co-worker from another department comes and asks me if my pumping bag was brown. I replied that it wasn’t blue with flowers and she said well someone found a pumping bag in the kitchen did you leave it out maybe? I told her that I didn’t but I would go check just in case I had a spacey moment. LOW AND BEHOLD it was my bag…did I leave it out NO.A WIC employee told me that a child who was obviously unattended went to the kitchen and took my bag out of the fridge and was playing with it at the play area. YES you read that correct a WIC kid whose parent wasn’t watching them grabbed my pumping bag with my milk out of the fridge and was found in the play area with it. I was LIVID. Of course I checked to make sure no milk was opened thank goodness it wasn’t! Especially since this was my day of success….the good thing was I got to talk to a lactation consultant. She was nice to talk to but then she got me worried about taking Fenugreek…she said that sometimes it’s not really fenugreek in the pill. I’m curious do any of you guys have thoughts on that?

Well as you can see pumping at work isn’t easy, but if you ask me it is totally worth it! Do I have any pumping moms who blog? I am curious because literally I feel like we are immediately friends cause of our situation J .I’ll talk to you soon!



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I have a computer...and a 4 month old

Friday, January 31, 2014

Hello!!! I HAVE A COMPUTER!!
Most of you who see this are probably thinking who is this? She hasn't written in FOREVER....well I didn't have a computer just a NOOK and that is almost impossible to blog on. My goal is to blog more cause I truly miss everyone in the blog-o-sphere.
Wow !so last you checked I had a newborn....well here she is now!




She is pretty amazing. I really didn't think I would LIKE being a mom. Honestly I was scared, right before I started pushing during delivery I had a complete MELTDOWN. I started crying, I was so worried I would be a bad mom, That I wasn't prepared. Probably not the best timing to be honest, but I was scared! Well who would have ever guessed the gymaholic/workaholic who doesn't want kids is now utterly obsessed with her daughter!! Seriously you guys I am 100% sure this is what I was born to be; a mom....and a good one at that.
Ask anyone who knows me... I do not have the best patience...but when it comes to bridgie (nickname) I have all the patience in the world. It is truly amazing what turning into a mom does.. so here I am a new person. I am a Cloth Diapering, Breastfeeding,Baby Wearing momma!! NO REGRETS!!!
Ill be back:) Hopefully your ready to join me on my new adventure as a mom!!
Oh and I am sorry if I missed anything Im going to attempt to catch up:)


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meet my daughter....im a mom

Saturday, October 12, 2013


I know it has been forever since I have posted. Months to be exact. Main reason is well I don't have a computer...I'm on a nook now and it sucks. So I'll make thisnquick. Meet my beautiful daughter. Born two weeks ago at 6lbs 12oz and 18inch. Of course it was dramatic but we are both okay and healthy!

This is Mrs. Bridgette
Isn't she beautiful!
Hopefully I get a computer soon so I can share more like
Birth story..pregnancy stories and newborn pics!
Love ya





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Gender...

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

It was 16 weeks when Guinn and I found out the gender of our little one! We decided to go on our own to find out the gender to a place in town ,mainly because Guinn wouldn't be able to come to the 21 week appointment for the anatomy scan. So we decided that we wanted to find out together so  we needed to go pay for a sonogram. 
The sonogram was awesome! We got to see the baby in 3D & 4D it was so awesome, there weren't many features to see and well this one is very mobile so tracking was hard! Taking any still pictures was rough to but the tech managed to get some. 

Here is my little one , look at those little legs!! I really hope that photo doesn't creepy anyone out, I know that sometimes people don't like ultra sounds! It was really hard for the tech to get the baby to stay still for any period of time to really see the gender...but then she smiled and said...
Congrats your having a 

GIRL!! I was so surprised I was so set on a boy it was crazy!!! 
The picture above is something my husband painted for her. 
The theme of her nursery will be wonder woman.
I know its a little off and crazy, but I really like the idea!
Its not over done, and we plan to make it very classy! 
So wish me luck and if you have ideas please feel free to send them our way!
There you have it coming in September is going to be ...
a crazy little guinn baby!!!

“Go in peace my daughter. And remember that, in a world of ordinary mortals, you are a Wonder Woman.” Queen Hippolyte




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